![]() I was out on a cafiter meaning I couldn’t move to tend to my baby and the dad didn’t make it any easier. I started to bleed out and had about 15 doctors rush into the room to save me. I gave birth which was a traumatic experience don’t get me wrong I loved it but I nearly died. I was so strong I really was, I was only 18. I went through pregnancy struggling with my changing body and all the weight I was gaining that I couldn’t my control. There is nothing more in this world that I wanted than to be a mom and I knew I’d be a great one (which I am). I was on anti depressants and anxiety medication was diagnosed with bd and eating disorders. Not long later I found I’m out I was pregnant. But neither of them offered me an apology or even really discussed what had happened previously, my mom just pretended like it didn’t happen and tried to be there fo me. He was silent and just looked at him like omg I’ve fucked up. My partner told him you do understand that Beth was instantly put on the exact same medication as you. I got a phone call back from my doctor I told him exactly how I was feeling and his response was “aMy medication was 50mg of the exact same type my dads had just been upped to. After a while I rang the emergency line when I couldn’t cope and they spoke to me and sent me to my doctors. I rang my partner and asked him to pick me up from my moms she came out to the car and asked if me and my partner had been arguing he said no other wise she wouldn’t of asked me to pick her up. No one asked me why or if they could help, just straight up crushed my feeling the same as they always have. So like I wasn’t already feeling weak enough for being so vulnerable I was also put down straight away. He said “what have you got to be depressed about”. So I did, in absolute tears I went down stairs and said to my dad I’m really struggling I think I may be depressed. I told her I couldn’t cope anymore and didn’t want to be here, she told me to go downstairs and tell me dad how I was feeling. My dad as long as I can remember and brother after he self harmed and nearly killed himself. They were both on medication and had been for a while. ![]() She said no beth(fake name) your dad is depressed, your brother is depressed, you are not. I was still at my moms and I just burst into tears and couldn’t stop crying I was so low and I told my mom I think I may be depressed. Don’t get me wrong I had/have my partner but we would argue constantly he would call me out on everything I did. I can’t do anything right, I can’t say anything right and had nobody. I couldn’t cope anymore with this shit life and how I was feeling. I was in the depth of my depression and was on the verge of suicide. I feel like I want to do a full story rant so here we go. Currently feeling like shit in general but also as a mom. I don’t even care if anyone reads this but if you do, thanks. I’m already reaching for these blushes often and I’m glad I added them to my collection.I just need a rant. Final ThoughtsĪll things considered, I’m impressed with this product. These blushes work well for light makeup days and full glam. In my opinion, that makes this product more versatile. It doesn’t give off the shine you can get from some cream products. While I wasn’t a huge fan of the putty primer formula, I absolutely love the blush formula! The creamy texture turns powdery after it’s applied to the skin. On my skin, Tahiti has the least amount of pigment, followed by Fiji. However, I did notice some shades showed up better when applied to my skin than others. ![]() The pigment is bomb right out of the pot. So, I rolled the dice when I selected my shades. The swatches on ELF’s website are not great. It feels sleek and high end, despite the price tag. As with the putty primer, I really like this packaging. I picked up three: Fiji, Tahiti, and Caribbean. So, when I saw these $6 blushes I had to give them a try!Įverything you need to know about the pigment and formulaĮLF putty blushes are available in eight shades. I don’t spend my coins on mascara, lip liner, and blush. However, I love a good drug store product and I hate spending money on basic makeup. My feelings are mixed on the wildly popular ELF putty primer.
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